The Fear of Change


I hate change.

 In all shapes and forms, from changing what I order at restaurants to trying a new hairstyle- it does not sit well with me. This characteristic is something I’ve been attempting to change for quite some time now, and I think it’s interesting to think about where it started. That brings me back to my parents, the people who helped create me and started my life.

With Immigrant Heritage Month wrapping up, it’s fitting to talk about the two immigrants I am the closest to. Both my mom and dad were born and raised in Addis Ababa, Ethiopia before making the trip to Dallas at the young age of 20. Having hopes of more opportunities, freedom, and a better life for their future children, they left everything behind and started from scratch in an unfamiliar place. With educational differences, language barriers, financial hardships, and the everlasting pressure to create a better life than what was left pushing down on them, they still prevailed. Having three daughters who were all first generation college students and bringing countless family members to the US while sending aid to those back home became their normal life. Reflecting on their life story is an inspiration, to say the least.

 To think that they were the same age I am currently, and accomplished all they did is motivating- and it all began with the choice of needed change. And yet, this story goes past just my parents. There are millions of immigrants in the US who all decided one day in their life that change was necessary, and they did just that. Courage, resilience, hard work, and self-love paint the picture of their life, and all tie into the life they made for themselves and their family in their new country. All of their life journeys come together to create the life we collectively know now.

 Having the opportunity to work closely with refugees through this internship has exposed me to the similar hardships endured by that group as well. Huda, Saja, and countless of others commit to change in the hopes of gaining a better life- just like my parents. Their resilience matches the kind my parents possessed, and change is what brought them to this point in their life.

 Coming to this conclusion is what sparked my interest in changing this trait about myself, and I hope it inspires you to do the same. I have learned so much from my parents and my internship, and I have learned so much about myself through them. I’ve been taught to never settle for less. To give 110% to anything that has my name on it. To never stop being thankful, and that ease is a greater threat to success than hardship. Although change scares me, I wouldn’t be on this earth if change hadn’t occurred.